But every now and then I have a moment where I truly feel like I'm a mother.
My poor little baby had a rough night. He just could not sleep and he was a little bit on the moody side.
After trying and failing to get him to go back to sleep I decided to take him out into the family room.
I laid on the floor and watched as J had the time of his life with a box full of goodies he found. He'd play and then lay his head on me, sometimes he'd lay on me and just chat and every now and then he'd give me some kisses.
And even though I was exhausted and was more asleep than awake for the first hour I found that I really enjoyed my early morning play date. As I watched my little man, who got no sleep, enjoying life I felt such a surge of love for him and the gift of being his mom.
I'm so grateful for him, for his contagious smile, and his easy demeanor.
Being a mom means you take the good and the rough (I'm hesitant to say bad). It means you get to be the one to comfort the baby in the middle of the night, because you're the one he cries for. You're the one he reaches for. It means that even when you're sick or tired your baby still needs you and you still need them. It means being exhausted but loving the extra snuggles you get in the middle of the night when you feed him, because he no longer sleeps on you in the day. It means giving all you got and receiving so much more.
I'm so grateful to be a mom. And I love all of my rough times as well as my good times.
Now don't go thinking I'm totally crazy, as soon as 8 rolled this morning around I had Woody take a turn while I went back to sleep. ;)