I finished teaching YIPPEE!!! I am always a little sad to say goodbye to my munchkins but I am grateful for the break and always excited to meet my new little ones the next year.
Speaking of school ending....
I have been telling people that woody and I will begin seeing a doctor for
When I would tell people I was going to get an appointment they would always ask me the next time we talked, if I had made an appointment and I would have to sheepishly reply 'no'. I am sure there were a few people who came away from said discussions a little perplexed.... If my next plan was to go see a doctor, why hadn't I even started looking them up?!
Logically I cannot explain this, but, I have been super anxious about calling a doctor. I am
the biggest worrier ever. It truly is silly. But every time I thought about going to a doctor, or looking them up, thinking about anything to do with the doctor I would get sick to my stomach and think... "uhm.. yeah no thanks, after school is out"
Even now I am unsure what I am most afraid of. Perhaps it is because I HATE anything new. I don't even like driving somewhere I've never been. Maybe it's because I am nervous about going to see a doctor about something so personal, but I mean, come on, I'm blogging about it so who cares if one more person wants to talk about it. But maybe it's because it's another step down a scary road. A step that means admitting that something isn't working. A step that means admitting that perhaps my body, that was designed to become a mother, has something not quite right. No one likes imperfections. But can you imagine admitting to one as big as possibly being unable to have a baby?
To say that I was nervous would be an understatement. I had a good friend, who is also trying to have a baby, tell me a name of a doctor (right before school ended too, nice timing). So I had my name, school was out and I was running out of excuses. Bummer.
Saturday woody and I were hanging out and he asked me if I was going to make the appointment. I gave him lots of excuses (I'm good at those!) but he turned them all down so I made the phone call and.. They didn't answer. So without any hesitation, I hung up! As much as I loved this, it unfortunately meant that I had to do the phone call again.
I went to call again yesterday. I honestly sat in my room, alone, door closed, for at least half an hour before finally calling. As I knew it would be.... It was painless ;)
SO the next step has been taken. YAHOO I have my appointment for July (don't worry you'll hear about it) and now I just have to handle the anxiety of the impending appointment!
I found a wonderful conference talk by Elder Bruce Porter yesterday that really helped calm my soul after all of the doctor excitement.
"Brothers and sisters, we need not fear the future, nor falter in hope and good cheer, because God is with us. Among the first recorded words of counsel that Jesus gave to His newly called disciples in Galilee was the two-word admonition, “Fear not” (Luke 5:10). He repeated that counsel many times during His ministry. To His Saints in our day, the Savior has said, “Be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you” (D&C 68:6)."
That truly spoke to my heart. That no matter what I am going through my savior will go through it with me. I am grateful for that knowledge and most especially for the strength that it gives me. I know that with The Lord on my side I can endure all thins.