We're Pregnant!!

Woody and I are having a baby!!!!

If you recall 2 posts ago, where I ovulated twice, once without the hubby.. well I thought for sure that we weren't pregnant.  So I waited very patiently for my period to come. 

Around day 40 of my cycle I got really sick.  I was constantly nauseated, cramping, and other fun things. We had people ask Woody and I if I was pregnant and we just laughed thinking no way.  I am sick too often for that to be our sign. So I continued feeling crummy and waiting for my period.  One morning while I was praying I had the unmistakable feeling that I was pregnant. I called Woody and made him buy a pregnancy test and come home so I could take it. After I took it Woody checked on the test and said it was negative, he continued to look at it and said "well maybe there might be a second line..".  But I didn't want to play that game so we threw it away and went on with the day.

I knew in my heart of hearts that I was pregnant so I decided I would take another test in the morning.  I couldn't sleep at all that night and had lots of dreams about taking the test.  I woke up at 5:00 and couldn't go back to sleep so I laid in bed until 7:00 and decided it was late enough that I could get up.  I took the test and watched it eagerly.. the second line was so faint I didn't know if I could believe it.  So I woke Woody up and sent him out for another test.  This time we bought one where the words "pregnant" or "not pregnant" would appear on the screen so there were no guesses!!

Woody watched the little screen and I watched Woody, unable to look at the test that would change our lives.  AND it said pregnant!! I always imagined I would cry at this point, but I didn't.  It was too surreal and hard to wrap our heads around.  But we were giddy and excited! And happy for a no nonsense test.

I had already made my doctors appointment to begin infertility testing, so I called up my OBGYN to switch the appointment to my first pregnancy appointment.  The lady was cute she said, "our doctors are so good you just have to make an appointment." 

I truly feel like this baby of ours is a little miracle.  A gift from our Father in Heaven and I am so grateful for my growing baby. 

I know there are so many of you struggling with having a baby and my heart literally ached for you when I could no longer travel that road with you and help you along it.  I pray for all of you (whether I know you or not) every night that you will have the strength needed to go through your journey and that in the right time, the Lord will bless you with a baby. 

My little sister is on a mission becoming a spiritual giant, in her last letter she talked about how God will make our weaknesses our strengths. I know that if you walk with God through your trials He will make you strong because of them.

Life is Good

Woody and I have been loving life lately.  Everything about summer is my favorite.

Woody ran RAGNAR with his family 2 weekends ago?  He said that it was one of the hardest things he's ever done, very rewarding, extremely fun, and utterly exhausting.

Over all he must have had a pretty positive experience, because he's going to run the VEGAS Ragnar in November.  He said mostly he wants to because then he will get the Saints and Sinners medal.  You get 1 guess as to which state represents sinners...

I elected to stay with Woody's mom during Ragnar and help babysit the hoodlums.  Remember how much I love being an aunt?!  I love these cute nephews of mine.  We had a fun-filled day: pancakes, swimming, movie and outside play!! The boys LOVED the play in the park.  All of them did so much better at that then at the movie.

I also enjoyed the play! I loved being outside, and there is just something about seeing a play.

On Tuesday, after Ragnar, Woody and I went with his family to Provo Beach Resort.  It is a pretty happening spot. It was fun to watch them do the Flo-Rider.. but a little bit on the pricy side to participate in!

My brother in law Justin got up and got surfing!! Can't even tell that he's from Utah can ya?

Woody and Kolton found their inner kid at Provo Beach Resort.  They raced each other on the basketball game a lot a few times.

It was my BIRTHDAY! Yay me ;)

The Saturday before my B-day Woody and I went out to dinner to celebrate.  He made  friend in the Armadillo!

And we went and saw White House Down.  I really liked the movie, but told Woody there was a little too much killing.  He laughed at me and said "well what did you expect?!!"

My birthday was on Sunday.  I got to facetime with my parents.  Not the best picture of our facetime experience but I LOVE THEM! They are the best parents a girl could ask for!!

I got to wear a new dress that my MIL Tina bought for me!

And my sister and I ended up matching at my birthday dinner.  Haha we've been matching since high school.  It happens all the time!!

Lately during my scripture study I have been reading in Alma.  Alma is a book (a selection of chapters) inside the Book of Mormon.  If you do not own the Book of Mormon, you can read it be clicking here!

Alma 38:5 

And now my son, Shiblon, I would that ye should remember, that as much as ye shall put your trust in God even so much ye shall be delivered out of your trials, and your troubles, and your afflictions, and ye shall be lifted up at the last day.

Alma 14:13

And Alma said: Be it according to the will of the Lord. But, behold, our work is not finished; therefore they burn us not.

Trials are tough.  Don't ya think? I've had something that I've been praying particularly hard for lately.  And while I have prayed fervently I have decided to change the way I pray.  While I pray for the thing that I desire, I always include the prayer that the Lord's will be done.  I have also prayed for the strength for whatever comes, and to be turned into the person that the Lord would have me be.  

We all want to have our trials to be taken from us.  Sometimes they are. And sometimes we have to wait for them.  Even while we wait for them, we can have Faith, enjoy life, and stay strong in the Gospel. 

I saw a good quote on Pinterest the other day that I would like to share:

Patience isn't the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.

A Series of Unfortunate Events

First off, I totally forgot to mention this, BUT my baby sister went on a mission!! She is going to be the best missionary ever! It was kind of hard to say goodbye.  But I know she is doing the right thing and that she will bless the lives of others by bringing them the Gospel.

So to help cheer my parents up after letting their baby go (and because who can resist a vacation?) my sister Heather and I spent a week in Vegas.  Cheering up mom and dad was really hard work, but someone had to do it.  I mean we HAD to hang out all day in the pool.  Feel bad for us?

So, if you think like my sister does you're wondering... "WAIT!! Don't go! A week away from your hubby?? Aren't you trying to get pregnant? Isn't that sort of hard to do without a hubby?"

BUT don't worry you worriers I planned ahead... well I thought I had.  SO the week before my BBT dropped and I was experiencing minor other symptoms of ovulating (does that word freak you out? I used to not like saying it but now I'm used to it... so sorry if it's TMI for you).. back to my story... so I took a handy dandy ovulating test and got this bad boy

OH! HEYYYY SMILEY FACE!! 

Incase you're wondering what the smiley means... it meant I ovulated (oh shoot, I said the word again). The next day I took another little test, and no smiley face... So needless to say I thought DONE AND DONE.  Vegas baby!!

Well.... while in Vegas I started having some SERIOUS signs of ovulating.  So much so that I thought there was no way I wasn't ovulating.... So... I went out and bought some more ovulating tests.

My niece wanted to hold the test, sure babe! Why not?

 She asked me what it was and I said it was a test for me take.  K said "Oh, will it tell you wether or not your happy?" (it has a smiley face on display) Yup.. exactly Kakes very observant.

Now it was TIME. TO. TAKE. THE. TEST.  Do I want to be right about observing my ovulating sings, which means I want a positive test? Or do I want to be wrong because I'm currently very far away from the hubby and getting pregnant is looking pretty slim... (I was wishing the latter)

OH! HEY SMILEY FACE!!... go away

And in case you were wondering... I got that stinking no-good lovely smiley face for 5 days in a row!! I still had the smiley face on Sunday when my sister and I were supposed to drive home, however her little girl had a terrible ear ache and so we stayed an extra day

On Monday when I got back I took another test..

 OH!! HEY SMIL.... Hey?!! WHERE'S MY SMILEY????

Needless to say, I am most likely not pregnant.  But wait?! I got positive ovulation tests days a part the first time?? (you may be wondering) Oh, yes, yes I did.  And anything else about periods that are normal and supposed to happen that you think is always the same.. is not the same for me.

But I loved my time in Vegas!!  I got to hang out with my two little nieces who adore me (I'm very modest)  and I absolutely love!  If I can't be a mom right now, at least I am an aunt.  It's awesome

I got to visit a very sweet baby!! My cousin Jenn just had her.  She was adorable!!  Oak and I had to fight over who got to hold the baby.

I am so sad I don't have any pictures with my mom!! But I hung out with her all week, she's the best!

And I got to spend Father's Day with my Pappa.  He's the best father a girl could ask for.

So.. Ovulating (how many times did I say that word this post?) without a hubby was rather unfortunate, and a little discouraging.  I guess we will just have to wait until next month.

And although I had a serious step back in the baby progress, I loved my time with my family.  And quite honestly I don't regret it.

There is a wonderful talk from the Prophet of the Church of Jesus Christ, President Monson, called Finding Joy in the Journey  I would like to share a little part with you:

"Let us relish life as we live it, find joy in the journey, and share our love with friends and family.  One day each of us will run out of tomorrows"

Don't wait for that one thing to happen to be happy, And we all have that ONE THING (who can guess mine?) BE HAPPY NOW.  It is a choice, and can be a very difficult choice to make some days, but make it everyday! BE happy, enjoy life, and life will be good.

Taking the plunge

Life has been strange lately.  Time has not seemed to run at a normal speed and I am constantly getting my days mixed up.  I feel like its been forever since I posted, but really it has not even been that long.

  I finished teaching YIPPEE!!! I am always a little sad to say goodbye to my munchkins but I am grateful for the break and always excited to meet my new little ones the next year.

Speaking of school ending....

I have been telling people that woody and I will begin seeing a doctor for a while a little bit now.  In my head though I always thought "yeah, of course we will go see a doctor....just not until school is out".   Well guess what, School. Is. Out.   Oh shoot does that mean its time to make my appointment?

When I would tell people I was going to get an appointment they would always ask me the next time we talked, if I had made an appointment and I would have to sheepishly reply 'no'.  I am sure there were a few people who came away from said discussions a little perplexed.... If my next plan was to go see a doctor, why hadn't I even started looking them up?!

Logically I cannot explain this, but, I have been super anxious about calling a doctor.  I am 
the biggest worrier ever. It truly is silly. But every time I thought about going to a doctor, or looking them up, thinking about anything to do with the doctor I would get sick to my stomach and think... "uhm.. yeah no thanks, after school is out"

Even now I am unsure what I am most afraid of.  Perhaps it is because I HATE anything new. I don't even like driving somewhere I've never been. Maybe it's because I am nervous about going to see a doctor about something so personal, but I mean,  come on, I'm blogging about it so who cares if one more person wants to talk about it. But maybe it's because it's another step down a scary road.  A step that means admitting that something isn't working.  A step that means admitting that perhaps my body, that was designed to become a mother, has something not quite right.  No one likes imperfections. But can you imagine admitting to one as big as possibly being unable to have a baby?


To say that I was nervous would be an understatement. I had a good friend, who is also trying to have a baby, tell me a name of a doctor (right before school ended too, nice timing). So I had my name, school was out and I was running out of excuses.  Bummer.

Saturday woody and I were hanging out and he asked me if I was going to make the appointment. I gave him lots of excuses (I'm good at those!) but he turned them all down so I made the phone call and.. They didn't answer. So without any hesitation, I hung up! As much as I loved this, it unfortunately meant that I had to do the phone call again.

I went to call again yesterday. I honestly sat in my room, alone, door closed, for at least half an hour before finally calling.  As I knew it would be.... It was painless ;)

SO the next step has been taken. YAHOO I have my appointment for July (don't worry you'll hear about it) and now I just have to handle the anxiety of the impending appointment!

I found a wonderful conference talk by Elder Bruce Porter yesterday that really helped calm my soul after all of the doctor excitement.

"Brothers and sisters, we need not fear the future, nor falter in hope and good cheer, because God is with us. Among the first recorded words of counsel that Jesus gave to His newly called disciples in Galilee was the two-word admonition, “Fear not” (Luke 5:10). He repeated that counsel many times during His ministry. To His Saints in our day, the Savior has said, “Be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you” (D&C 68:6)."

That truly spoke to my heart. That no matter what I am going through my savior will go through it with me. I am grateful for that knowledge and most especially for the strength that it gives me. I know that with The Lord on my side I can endure all thins. 

Saying Goodbye

This past Thursday one of my bestest friends passed away. 

 HIs family moved down the street from mine in the 4th grade (maybe the summer before?).  I still remember when my mom MADE me go over to his house and bring them cookies.  I remember sitting on the steps in his main hallway and him asking me if I wanted to see his room... so he showed me and we were friends since.

Growing up I danced a lot!! Ryan and Alex would always call me after dance rehearsals and come hang out with me.  And, of course, come support me at my shows

Ryan had a golden tongue.  He could talk anyone into anything.  Our sophomore year he even talked my parents into letting him come with us on a DisneyLand trip.  It's a miracle my parents let him come. We all slept in the same room, and Ryan slept on the floor haha

He took me on my first date! I honestly have no idea where we got the pictures taken!! But I do remember getting some food and then going to the Harry Potter book release.. Yeah that was my idea ;)

For some reason, Ryan loved planning a bank heist... I think it happened after we watched 'The Italian Job'.  I was to be the distraction.. because I'm such a babe ;)  and I'm pretty sure he designated himself as the get away driver

Ryan and Alex were the best friends a girl could ask for.  They filled my room with balloons for my 16 birthday!! Blowing up those balloons was a beast.. or so they told me!

Ryan was a staple in my life.  I remember this past New Years Eve Woody and I were at my parents house and they were going to the Newsons for a party.  Woody and I went cuz Ryan would be there, and Ryan said he'd stay cuz we'd come.  

Ryan was a family friend, and there were times when I'd come home from somewhere, and Ryan would already be there!

We were friends even when we didn't look fabulous... never was a fan of Ryan's black hair, and he was kind enough to mention how silly I looked with my fancy make up

Another example of his golden tongue.  Somehow Ryan talked Alex and I into going on this free drop ride at Lagoon.  Seriously, so scary! And I have no idea how he talked me into that!

Saying goodbye to Ryan was one of the hardest things I have had to do, it still doesn't seem real all the time.  I take courage in knowing that he has now found peace, and that he is with our Father in Heaven.  I am so grateful to know that Eternal Progression is possible, that life goes on, and that someday I will see him again.  

The Spiritual thought for the post comes from the song 'I Know that my Redeemer Lives'

1. 1. I know that my Redeemer lives.
   What comfort this sweet sentence gives!
   He lives, he lives, who once was dead.
   He lives, my ever-living Head.
   He lives to bless me with his love.
   He lives to plead for me above.
   He lives my hungry soul to feed.
   He lives to bless in time of need.
2. 2. He lives to grant me rich supply.
   He lives to guide me with his eye.
   He lives to comfort me when faint.
   He lives to hear my soul's complaint.
   He lives to silence all my fears.
   He lives to wipe away my tears.
   He lives to calm my troubled heart.
   He lives all blessings to impart.
3. 3. He lives, my kind, wise heav'nly Friend.
   He lives and loves me to the end.
   He lives, and while he lives, I'll sing.
   He lives, my Prophet, Priest, and King.
   He lives and grants me daily breath.
   He lives, and I shall conquer death.
   He lives my mansion to prepare.
   He lives to bring me safely there.
4. 4. He lives! All glory to his name!
   He lives, my Savior, still the same.
   Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
   "I know that my Redeemer lives!"
   He lives! All glory to his name!
   He lives, my Savior, still the same.
   Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
   "I know that my Redeemer lives!"

Goodbye to my life long friend... I will see you again